“I was very much surprised last night, to hear your
statements of Mr Holcroft’s
determination concerning me, as it differed materially from what had been
represented to me before; hitherto I have had no opportunity of conversing with
you on the subject, and it is necessary that I should inform you of the exact
state of my mind. Should it appear that Mr
Holcroft’s life is at all in
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“But if, on the other hand, he means to sacrifice me, with scarcely a possibility of advantage to himself, and the evidence I am able to give should have nothing singular and particular, or out of the power of any other person to produce; from what could such conduct arise, but wanton cruelty or insanity?
“If this should be his determination, I declare to you, as I did last night, that I will not expose myself to the evils which this puerile conceit is thus preparing for me.
“What could be more tyrannical than Mr Holcroft’s assertion, that whatever might be my dislike, he would force me to do my duty? As if he were to be the judge of it. The Despots say no more! His treatment of Mr Reveley excites in me the most unpleasant feelings; I believe I shall ever think of it with detestation.
“I feel a doubt that, from many circumstances which have lately occurred, you should imagine that any change has taken place in my opinion of you. Be assured that the high esteem and veneration which your virtues and genius entitle you to, have not suffered the smallest diminution in the sentiments of
