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Journal of the Conversations of Lord Byron
Lady Caroline Lamb
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JOURNAL

OF THE

CONVERSATIONS

OF

LORD BYRON:

NOTED DURING A RESIDENCE WITH HIS LORDSHIP

AT PISA,

IN THE YEARS 1821 AND 1822.


BY THOMAS MEDWIN, ESQ.

OF THE 24TH LIGHT DRAGOONS,

AUTHOR OF “AHASUERUS THE WANDERER.”


LONDON:
PRINTED FOR HENRY COLBURN, NEW BURLINGTON STREET.
1824.
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“I have often wished,” said I to Lord Byron one day, “to know how you passed your time after your return from Greece in 1812.”

J. C. Hobhouse, in Westminster Magazine

“There is little to be said about it,” replied he. “Perhaps it would have been better had I never returned! I had become so much attached to the Morea, its climate, and the life I led there, that nothing but my mother’s death* and my affairs would have brought me home. However, after an absence of three years, behold! I was again in London. My Second Canto of ‘Childe Harold’ was then just published; and the impersonation of myself, which, in spite of all I could say, the world would discover in that poem, made every one curious to know me, and to discover the identity. I received every where a marked attention, was courted in all societies, made much of by Lady Jersey, had the entré at Devonshire-house, was in favour with Brummel, (and that was alone enough to make a man of fashion at that time;) in fact, I was a lion—a ball-room bard—a hot-pressed darling! ‘The Corsair’ put my reputation au comble, and

* In August 1811.

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had a wonderful success, as you may suppose, by one edition being sold in a day.

Polidori, who was rather vain, once asked me what there was he could not do as well as I? I think I named four things:—that I could swim four miles—write a book, of which four thousand copies should be sold in a day*—drink four bottles of wine—and I forget what the other was, but it is not worth mentioning. However, as I told you before, my ‘Corsair’ was sufficient to captivate all the ladies.

“About this period I became what the French call un homme à bonnes fortunes, and was engaged in a liaison,—and, I might add, a serious one.

“The lady had scarcely any personal attractions to recommend her. Her figure, though genteel, was too thin to be good, and wanted that roundness which elegance and grace would vainly supply. She was, however,

* The fact is that nearly 10,000 of several of Lord Byron’s productions have been sold on the first day of publication.

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young, and of the first connexions. Au reste, she possessed an infinite vivacity, and an imagination heated by novel-reading, which made her fancy herself a heroine of romance, and led her into all sorts of eccentricities. She was married, but it was a match of convenance, and no couple could be more fashionably indifferent to, or independent of one another, than she and her husband. It was at this time that we happened to be thrown much together. She had never been in love—at least where the affections are concerned,—and was perhaps made without a heart, as many of the sex are; but her head more than supplied the deficiency.

“I was soon congratulated by my friends on the conquest I had made, and did my utmost to shew that I was not insensible to the partiality I could not help perceiving. I made every effort to be in love, expressed as much ardour as I could muster, and kept feeding the flame with a constant supply of billets-doux and amatory verses. In short, I was in decent time duly and regularly installed into what the Italians call service, and soon became, in every sense of the word, a patito.

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“It required no Œdipus to see where all this would end. I am easily governed by women, and she gained an ascendancy over me that I could not easily shake off. I submitted to this thraldom long, for I hate scenes, and am of an indolent disposition; but I was forced to snap the knot rather rudely at last. Like all lovers, we had several quarrels before we came to a final rupture. One was made up in a very odd way, and without any verbal explanation. She will remember it. Even during our intimacy I was not at all constant to this fair one, and she suspected as much. In order to detect my intrigues she watched me, and earthed a lady into my lodgings,—and came herself, terrier-like, in the disguise of a carman. My valet, who did not see through the masquerade, let her in; when, to the despair of Fletcher, she put off the man, and put on the woman. Imagine the scene: it was worthy of Faublas!

“Her after-conduct was unaccountable madness—a combination of spite and jealousy. It was perfectly agreed and understood that we were to meet as strangers. We were at a ball. She came up and asked me if she might waltz. I thought it perfectly indifferent whether she
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waltzed or not, or with whom, and told her so, in different terms, but with much coolness. After she had finished, a scene occurred, which was in the mouth of every one.

“Soon after this she promised young —— *    * if he would call me out. *    *    *    *    *    *    *    *    * Yet can any one believe that she should be so infatuated, after all this, as to call at my apartments? (certainly with no view of shooting herself.) I was from home; but finding ‘Vathek’ on the table, she wrote in the first page, ‘Remember me!’

“Yes! I had cause to remember her; and, in the irritability of the moment, wrote under the two words these two stanzas:—

‘Remember thee, remember thee!
Till Lethe quench life’s burning stream,
Remorse and shame shall cling to thee,
And haunt thee like a feverish dream!
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Remember thee! Ay, doubt it not;
Thy husband too shall think of thee;
By neither shalt thou be forgot,
Thou ***** to him, thou ***** to me!’”

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